The title of the book, Women Food and God caught my eye recently. I have been battling with compulsive eating and felt that the time had come to do something about it. Geneen Roth, the author of this book, believes that our relationship with food is an exact microcosm of our relationship to life. She says that if you track the impulse to eat when you’re not hungry down to its core, you find everything you believe about loving, living and dying. Women turn to food when they are not hungry because they are hungry for something they can’t name: a connection to what is beyond the daily concerns of life.
I was a skinny child and it was only as a teenager that I started becoming chubby. I went on my first diet at age 15 and lost so much weight I could fit my hands around my waist, my boobs disappeared and I didn’t have a period for two years. I somehow avoided developing a full blown eating disorder but my relationship to food has been a rocky one ever since. I put on all the weight again and more but I have resisted dieting because I know my tendency to become obsessed. As I become older, the desire to lose weight has increased, however, mainly because I want to enjoy a long, healthy life. (more…)